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We got news on Thursday that our Professor for my master’s program has passed away. Cancer. As messages were pouring in on Linked In, and then Facebook, and then the journals that I used to read/contribute to, I couldn’t help but think “It’s not what you say about yourself (in front of you or behindContinue reading “Death doesn't let you say goodbyes”

  “Every day, we are living as source materials of the eulogy for people who love us” It’s probably a morbid thought. But that’s what I thought to myself during a funeral. It’s someone we know from church. She was 80 and had an amazing, well-lived, and courageous life. She was surrounded by children, grandchildren,Continue reading “Eulogy”

In my feverish dream state of half awake and half hallucination (for the past 5 days), I reflected on the last time I had a severe sickness like this. Funny enough, it was exactly 8 years ago, 3 weeks before my birthday. I can confidently say that, in the past 8 years, the consistent improvementContinue reading “2 be loved”

  “Wherever you go, there you are” In recent meditations about life, career, and friendships, it is becoming increasingly clear that I’m the shared problem in all my problems. No, not the “It’s me. Hi. I’m the problem it me” kind of problem. If anything, it’s the opposite of that. In the effort to notContinue reading “(Un)grateful”

 (Cautiously) Pacing Forward As more and more people are posting 2022 photos and memories and the online life they presented for themselves, I can’t help but feeling, what’s the word, hopeful. People who know me know I do not do New Year resolutions (They fail usually at the Jan 15th mark and they are allContinue reading “The night before New Year”

(This is the first part of a year end two-parter: Year in review + looking ahead)  2022 was … well… wild. It is hard to describe a year with so many surprises, so many ups and downs, and so many instability. But I’ll try. As we were heading out of the pandemic (and some mightContinue reading “The night before Christmas”

I was photographing a wedding signing on Sunday, and it hits me in all the feels. I’m a sucker for weddings. Say what you will, but I’m a romantic at hearts, and in the world where I am cynical about everything else, I love love. (Also, all of the people I have taken wedding photosContinue reading “Love. Marriage. And Other Fool's Errands”

Nothing new and riveting this time around, I’m afraid. After spending a full week on an all-team-member, all-in-office meeting, one fact hits me in the face. “When someone tells you they are too busy for you or the things you want them to do with/for you; it just means they have other higher priority (andContinue reading “Priority”

I don’t know what has brought on the recent funk in my life, and I was determined to find out. It might be because I was recently turned down for a promotion. It might be because I came back from a 3-week-trip in Europe to the same old familiar, and a province now run byContinue reading “Melancholia”

( This is an introspective meditation about inward honesty) I’ve realized more and more lately that what we as humanity said we wanted is often at odds with what we actually want. Similarly, sometimes we only want “the good”, without “the bad”. In other words, we only wish for “the perfect” that doesn’t exist. ForContinue reading “What we want vs What we said we wanted”