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In Chicago, some old stories are revisited, reversed, and renewed. I visited Chicago 16 years ago. I only had a brief 2 days here, there was a shooting, and I was only a very scared young foreign student to be traveling alone. Well, technically I got stuck at Chicago Ohare airport A LOT (Thanks, United),Continue reading “In the pursuit of stories – Part 2”

  So I met the 28-year-old resident for a “date” (don’t freak out, I asked for permission, the guy knows I’m married, and we didn’t do anything). We spent four hours walking around Boston, through the parks, the bridges, the streets. The diffused sun behind us illuminated his teal jacket, as if a tasteful indieContinue reading “In the pursuit of stories – Part 1”

(No – I have not gone crazy. This is called Meditation – For easy to follow, I have called alternative me Mr.P) Mr.P: “How’s Boston?” Me: “it’s going great I think. Gorgeous weather. Sunshine. Warm. Not usual this time a year in Boston. I’m a bit too early for the spring flowers. But it’s stillContinue reading “Conversation with myself in the quiet”

Whenever I am at peak escapism, the song I listen to is Boston – Augustana. Which is funny, because I never really love Boston that much or thought about moving to Boston. I guess it is just the fantastical romance of it all “You don’t know me. You don’t even care. You don’t know me.Continue reading “Boston”

 “You’re not here. When you’re here, you’re not here.” I don’t know how often, how loving, or how loud I have to say certain things for them to be heard. I don’t know if we should pay someone $190 an hour so that they can be a proxy to say it. I don’t know ifContinue reading “What do I really want?”

  Can you be surrounded by people,and still be alone? Can you have friends without the burden of their problems? Can you have love without being desired? Can you carry the weight of the lights, with the vast emptiness of the shadow? I asked myselfin the shadow. “What is wrong, love?” – they askand theyContinue reading “In the shadow”

  Back at my last job when I started having troubles sleeping, my last boss has shared with me a military tactic for soldiers: Imagine you are on a boat, in a calm pond, surrounded by mountains, in a dark sky with stars, bright enough to see the mountain and the boat but not tooContinue reading “The boat”

  I think I might have figured out the source of my troubles – depression lately. And in the most Buddhist sense of why I have been depressed my whole life, it’s with the sense of self. This time, it manifested with Rejection. I was catching up with a friend that I have not seenContinue reading “The troubles of the self”

  I was in a one-on-one with a team member and his wife walks in to deliver his lunch, so I told him Dan usually doesn’t cook. “Who’s Dan? Your roommate?” “My husband.” I met up with an old friend – colleague for dinner. The last time we met was pre-pandemic/pre-wedding. And we talked aboutContinue reading “For Singapore. Forever ago.”

  And so 2021 comes to an end.  Another year of the pandemic. Another year of global uncertainty. Another year of challenges both professionally and personally. It has been a dark dark year. Another year that I am grateful for. We continue to progress in our careers. Dan has a new job. I have (2)Continue reading “Before the dawn – of 2022”