We spent the most part of our weekend gardening. Spring in Calgary is a “transformative” time, which means chaotic, unpredictable, and ever changing. I usually transplant my seedlings on the May long weekend, which frosted and hailed this year. As we got everything in the garden bed, and I sat in front of my hubby’sContinue reading “A grateful note”
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Meditation upon a dream
I have wild and bizarre dreams often, but I very rarely have vivid dreams. Unlike most of my bizarre adventures, vivid dreams get stuck with me. Be it a conversation with my mother, with my ex, with my “other” self, or with my partner, etc., they linger. These dreams are often conversations, played out inContinue reading “Meditation upon a dream”
O Canada – a tribute
Mochi was not feeling great yesterday so I sat with her on the couch in our living room. This is the view I was staring at for about an hour. It’s our living room, or as we call it, the Canadian room. The room is filled with original Canadian art (some from indigenous artists), CanadianContinue reading “O Canada – a tribute”
A Canadian turned 40 in America
I turned 30 in Vegas (when I first started dating Dan). So I guess it’s fitting that I turned 40 in California (being married to him). It seems like a changing of the season, of a page being turned, or even an entire new book written. I said I loved him on the night ofContinue reading “A Canadian turned 40 in America”
30s in 30
Ah, my sweet 40. Here it is. (I know, it feels like I’ve been talking about it since forever ago). I was talking to my ex-coworker/mentor the other day and we agreed that the reason why I am so anxious/restless is that my 30s were so fucking awesome that it will be hard to beat.Continue reading “30s in 30”
New year resolution
As I pulled up to the gym’s parking lot, a few thoughts came to mind. First, parking. “Where the hell am I going to park, with the resolution crowd coming to the gym today?” Lucky for me, I go to a neighborhood community gym (and it is snowing today), so, aside from a few gymContinue reading “New year resolution”
The nostalgia mindfuck
Maybe nostalgia is really the side effect of aging. I have found myself reminiscing and going back into wild bizarre habits and (sometime false) romantic fantasies of the past. I have spent a fair bit of time (and disposable income) on fountain pens and ink lately. Also writing in ridiculously elaborate cursive. I can’t sayContinue reading “The nostalgia mindfuck”
In honor of the lives we would have never lived
I’ve been thinking a lot. It’s what happens when you wake up at 5 a.m. and your brain refuses to let you go back to sleep. It’s a lonely place. In the lonely hours. And when I ran out of things to worry about, the state of the world, my work, my career, our marriage,Continue reading “In honor of the lives we would have never lived”
The Gratitude vs Anxiety Conundrum
My prayers to the universe get more confusing by the day. The world that I live in is complex, messy, imperfect, and at times utterly overwhelming. I am grateful for my life. I am grateful for my family, my friends, and the safe and peaceful country and welcoming community that I live in. Yet, atContinue reading “The Gratitude vs Anxiety Conundrum”
Feeling thankful
Just like the first snowfall, Thanksgiving comes much earlier in Canada than in the US. The timing is appropriate, too, I think, as the Fall is a great time to reflect and be thankful for the things we have in the first half of the year. 2024 has been a weird whirlwind year. Many thingsContinue reading “Feeling thankful”
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