The coming out monologue

It is Pride week in Calgary (I know, just as most LGBTQ+ rights and human rights in Alberta and Calgary, Pride comes a lot later for us). As I look back and reflect on my life, something stood out to me. Something that I didn’t quite understand back then. I wanted to share this withContinue reading “The coming out monologue”

The childless gays (with dog)

Those who are close to us know that once upon a time (pre-pandemic), we wanted to adopt and be parents. Yet, the universe had other plans. She looked at me and she said “Nah, gurl, you look better with a Speedo than with a trolley. How about an AussieDoodle instead? You have less opportunity toContinue reading “The childless gays (with dog)”

O Canada – a tribute

Mochi was not feeling great yesterday so I sat with her on the couch in our living room. This is the view I was staring at for about an hour. It’s our living room, or as we call it, the Canadian room. The room is filled with original Canadian art (some from indigenous artists), CanadianContinue reading “O Canada – a tribute”

The nostalgia mindfuck

Maybe nostalgia is really the side effect of aging. I have found myself reminiscing and going back into wild bizarre habits and (sometime false) romantic fantasies of the past. I have spent a fair bit of time (and disposable income) on fountain pens and ink lately. Also writing in ridiculously elaborate cursive. I can’t sayContinue reading “The nostalgia mindfuck”

In honor of the lives we would have never lived

I’ve been thinking a lot. It’s what happens when you wake up at 5 a.m. and your brain refuses to let you go back to sleep. It’s a lonely place. In the lonely hours. And when I ran out of things to worry about, the state of the world, my work, my career, our marriage,Continue reading “In honor of the lives we would have never lived”

The Gratitude vs Anxiety Conundrum

My prayers to the universe get more confusing by the day. The world that I live in is complex, messy, imperfect, and at times utterly overwhelming. I am grateful for my life. I am grateful for my family, my friends, and the safe and peaceful country and welcoming community that I live in. Yet, atContinue reading “The Gratitude vs Anxiety Conundrum”